Seems like it might never stop raining in Portland. The news said we are 258% above average rainfall for this month. That’s a lot, even for Oregon. I’m so ready for some sunshine. I think it would help my mood immensely. I’m not in a bad mood, just a blah one. Rain does that to me after a while because it just slows everything down in a weird way.
I feel pretty hopeful today. I picked up a book by Eckhart Tolle, The Power of Now, and started reading it again. I remember liking it the first time around. I also really enjoyed A New Earth, another very insightful book of his.
Reading The Power of Now helped me find my bearings a bit today. Sometimes when I read something that really makes sense to me by someone whose logic I respect, it makes me feel better, like I’m heading in the right direction, like I’m thinking the right kinds of thoughts about the right kinds of things most of the time.
This book really stresses being in the present moment, possibly more than any book I have read. And it does so in a wonderfully firm, no-nonsense way. I have read many books by Thich Nhat Hanh where he makes the same points just as effectively, but in a very different, softer way. So beautiful, but so different from Eckhart Tolle.
I am grateful for the ability to be aware most of the time. I’ve been working at it for 6 years, but it’s been worth it. To be present and aware is to be able to experience joy at any moment, just by choosing it. When you exist unconsciously, living in the past or the future, you lose the true power of choice. In my opinion, it’s not really possible to affect positive change in life without paying attention. Things happen by default which can keep a person in a fairly constant state of reaction. That’s why things seem so random sometimes. But really, nothing ever happens for no reason.
Being in the now is the safest, most peaceful place a person can be. The past is just the memory of now moments that we’ve already lived through successfully to get to this one. And if we can fully embrace and appreciate the moment we are in right now, it will give birth to another glorious and perfect now. We just have to let it happen without resisting.
Eckhart Tolle says if you find yourself struggling against your present life circumstances, you should either remove yourself from it, change it if you can, or learn to accept it for what it is. Doing one of those things will put an end to suffering and produce peace. This is the truth as I have experienced it. As I have learned to accept things how they are, my life has gotten easier in ways. At least I don’t punish myself constantly with worry anymore. I know that worry never helps anything, so I find something else to do. And whatever I find to do is always way more fun than worrying. Go figure.
Recently life has begun to feel like an adventure I am on with the angels. I know they will help me take care of things and when I can’t see the how of it, I just smile and wonder what beautiful miracle is on its way to me at this very moment.
I’m pretty sure I’m still going to have moments of doubt and suffering, but I know I possess the tools to move out of that pretty quickly.
So, I think the angels and my kids and I will see what we can make out of these now moments. I think it’s going to be good.
“Right now, hey it’s your tomorrow. Right now, C’mon, it’s everything.” ~Van Halen