A few days ago I wrote about waking up with near debilitating anxiety. When I searched my mind, I decided the anxiety and panic were related to not having a job and not knowing how I am going to pay my bills next month. It never occurred to me that it could be anything else. It is all about me after all. Or maybe it isn’t.
This is the second time recently I have had a realization of the level of my empathy for the world. My insights come in the form of messages from elsewhere. Because I believe in the unity of all things, the elsewhere the messages are coming from does not feel separate from me, but it’s definitely not coming from my rational, thinking brain. That’s really the best way I can explain it.
Last night as I was watching the news coverage of the earthquake and tsunami in Japan, I was talking to my kids about how we need to see Japan healed and not think too many disaster thoughts. I really believe this is the right way for us to make our contribution. We can make a monetary donation and probably will very soon, but I think we need to send positive, loving thoughts to Japan and not focus on the devastation. Acknowledge it and have compassion, but do not indulge in panic and thoughts of calamity.
This brings me back to the inexplicable panic and anxiety from a couple of days ago. Last night when I went to bed I started writing in my journal. I was expressing gratitude that I was safe and warm and comfortable in my bed. I had just taken a shower and had clean pajamas and just felt good. It occurred to me that there are many not as fortunate as I am and that when I am tempted to whine or bemoan my circumstances it’s good to remember there are a lot of people worldwide who would gladly trade places with me.
As I was writing, it came to me that the panic and anxiety I experienced was a premonition of the earthquake. I have had other mild psychic experiences, but I’m new to all of this and probably not as open to it as those more accustomed to thinking this way. Premonition explains the level of anxiety I felt that morning. It felt like something very bad was going to happen. It took most of the day to shake it off and it was scary, nearly terrifying.
It’s hard to explain how it feels when I receive messages, but I wish to stress they come as answers, not questions. Last night the premonition idea came to me as the explanation of why I experienced the panic and anxiety, not as a sense of wondering if there was a connection. All I can say is that things either feel true in my gut or they don’t. This felt true.
I’m learning so much about myself and my ability to perceive things beyond the five senses. It is fascinating and I hope to use it for the good of the world.
Marianne Williamson just posted this on Facebook and I think it is very pertinent for this post and for anyone with the gift of empathy. We must not forget to pray for others, constantly:
“The earthquake in Japan is a screaming emergency, but there are silent emergencies that trap billions of people elsewhere in daily despair as well…people whose suffering doesn’t often make the front pages because it’s part of a status quo reality. Perhaps if our hearts are broken open by the screaming emergencies, we’ll become more sensitive to the silent ones too. I hope so.”
Blessing the world with healing love.