Ever since I stopped going to church a few years ago, I haven’t been all that sure how to pray. It feels different now. And I realize that I have never really known how to pray. When I was a church goer, I was given a form to work with, so I knew the words to say, much like magic spells, but the words lacked feeling. Now I have many feelings seeking expression, but I find myself without words most of the time. I can never quite figure out what I need to say. I think I have been seeking the magic word or words that will unlock all that the universe wants for me. What ends up happening is that out of concern for doing it wrong, my prayers are vague and pretty weak, I’d say.
I’m trying to focus my attention better when I am talking to God. No wonder I am in the situation I am in. My connection to God is severely strained. I need to get back on track with the things that are sure to help me get through my challenges more easily. Why are the positive habits the first to go when stress happens?
If I could find the words, what would I want to communicate to God? Mostly that I am very thankful for the love in my life and the blessings I have received. I’m still here and I still have hope. I would admit my shortcomings and keep trying to do better. I would give thanks for the strength to get through these trying circumstances. I would report that I feel a little weak and vulnerable and tired and I would ask for the protection and assistance of angels. When there are angels around I don’t feel alone. It feels like I have help and it brings me peace. Aside from that, it is pretty much thy will be done.
I hope to become more organized with regard to prayer and meditation. I’ve been lazy and I need to step it up. There are so many wonderful people in my life whom I love, and I want to take some time and focus my intentions on them in a positive way. In the darkest of times, there is always something to be grateful for. Sometimes it takes a bit more work to see that, but it is true nonetheless.
I’m interested in learning some new ways to pray and connect with the Source. I’d love to know what works for others.
I think it’s very beautiful that there are so many religions connecting with God in their own way. I have respect for all religions that do no harm. I hope to learn as many as I can in this lifetime.